This work in progress is my response to all the constrained & detailed pieces I’ve been doing, with all the fine pencil work on These Blue Chambers, the tiny cuts with my silhouette scissors on the Moth-Eaten Heart, and all the little shadow box stuff.   I needed to just start slopping down paint & inks very quickly.  I used pages from old books and sheet music and collage photos for the background and am trying to capture the depressed mood of a young man experiencing perhaps his first heartbreak, from which he doesn’t believe he will ever recover.  She was everything to him.  He’ll be haunted by her memory forever.  This fractured his life.   She tore it apart.

 I’m going to work up a really red heart (like a suggested rough anatomical heart) on a separate sheet of paper, perhaps thick handmade paper, and apply it to the surface of his chest. I have some other imagery suggesting their time together that I want to add.  I feel like I want to add multiple layers of pale ochre glazes then, so that all of it feels like it’s behind a somewhat shiny veil of tears.      

This one feels good in terms of physically expressing the emotions while painting.  That was on my Permission Slip.  It’s like I was just able to take a good deep breath and exhale  fully.